| Glastonbury |
[27 Jun 2007|10:41pm] |
was amazing! so fucking good. shame about the rain and stuff. the mud was hell! haha. didn't see hardly anyone from college who i said i would LOL funny times. arctic monkeys and the automatic were great. i lost my beloved poncho and my chem hoodie in the dance tent which left me in the rain and cold with just a dress on. NICE. now i have a cold. hahaha.
i was supposed to have a driving lesson today at 12. so i went outside to wait for my teacher and he never came and i was well angry cos i got up early lol. so i rang him and it turned out he had a crash LOL oh the irony! hahaha.
i have a interview for college tomorrow. hopefully that will go ok. still haven't heard anything back on the positive side from any job placements. god. smile wrote back saying nooo. im fooked. i need money. AND the bastards at EMA figure i only get £20 a week now instead of £30 cos apparently we earn more now? don't see it tbh. fucking gay. i can only just cope on £30. ahhaha,
getting my hair done at toni and guy on friday. i cut it recently and its completee wank so im gonna try get it srted. HAHA its gonna be so funny they're gonna be like 'FUCK WHO HACKED YOUR HAIR?!' hahahaha.cant wait ahem. then i might colour it like a dark brown or blonde i dunno or a bit of both. :] cos my roots on the blonde bits are hell. they look rank.
so yeh thats all right now. all is the same in the world of kirsty and he non exsistant love life GET THE FUCK IN. hahaha
loser
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| Laughable |
[12 Apr 2007|12:33pm] |
Christ what a day yesterday was. All pretty much shit to be honest. Me Hannah and jenna went to yeovil and we saw Theo and fucking Emma there. Excellent. So secretly that ruined my day. Like seriously when me and Theo were friends he would never have done stuff with me but he does with emma fucking knob head. Grrr. And then we went to the gig which dan didn't come to so i was pissed of at that. =/. And gues who was there. Yeh fucking knob head one and knob head 2. Theo and Emma. I was like 'seriously what the fuck'. It's so annoying., When we were friends i would never see him and now the only time i don't want to see him and i see him twice in one day. Fucking knobbbb i hate him so much. And i got online today and theres a picture of him in emma's hoodie. And i remmeber when we were going out emma walked by and he was like 'oh my god what is she wearing'. and now he's wearing it. he's such a twat seriously. god i wish i'd never met him. seriously. =/
i've made up with emily. tbh i'm not letting theo ruin my frienships with people. i didnt want to like be enemies with him but seriously i want nothing more to do with him and i never want to speak to him again.
I HATE BOYS.
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| When things seem to go right |
[04 Mar 2007|01:37am] |
something bad always happens.
I'm finally getting over Theo and I finally think things are going to be okay and then my dad gets taken into hospital. He had bead chest pains and went to the doctors and then got rushed into hospital. =/ he should have been out last night but theyre keeping him in until monday. so yeh thats pretty gay.
I'm not eating properly either. Today all I had was a bowl of cereal and I puked that back up. Greaaat. Everything just seems to be going back to last year. And it sucks.
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| A new beginnning |
[14 Feb 2007|04:13pm] |
i honestly thought he was the one. its so wierd to think back and see how happy i was with him. and now i have no feeling for him at all. he text me. and i have never cried so much in my life. i couldnt see the end and i thought i would be feeling heartbroken for the rest of my life. now i see him at college and i dont even flinch. strange how feelings can change.
its now the day of love and i have no one. you;d think after breaking up with someone so soon before i would be upset, feeling a bit down because i havent go a card or a present again this year. but im happy being this way. im content with being single. it means that next week when my parents go away i can have some fun. :]
yes i have my eye on someone. would i want to go out with them? not too sure but i'd definatley like to 'get to know them' better. ;]
life is good right now. :D
& take it from me, being in a relationship at this age isnt all its cracked up to be.
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| Love |
[01 Dec 2006|09:42pm] |
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is possibly the most sweet and awesome feeling and emotion ever. and i think im falling into its clutches as i type. ahh.
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| Him |
[09 Oct 2006|07:31pm] |
[17:51:39]him: not next week week after
[17:51:58]me: ahh right. i guess ill be coming to that too then :)
[17:53:14]him: yeh deffo
[17:55:12]him: have u got tutorial too
[17:55:25]me: yepp. tomorrow is the shittest day ever.
[17:55:32]me: hopefully i wont be in there too long
[17:55:48]him: good
[17:57:12]me: if i get out of my tutorial quick ill try and find you.. again
[17:57:12]me: haha
[17:57:49]him: yah
[17:57:52]him: and ill be where i always am
[18:25:33]me: awh man tomorrow is goona be shiiit
[18:27:08]him: nahh its gonna be lush hahaha
[18:27:35]me: not for me :(
[18:28:06]him: yeh but after college ==D
[18:28:25]me: hehe yeah after will be good. but day time will be horribleee. :-O what if im too tired to come?!
[18:28:45]me: you have no choice your coming
[18:28:57]me: hahaha you gonna make me?!
[18:29:17]me: yes i am
[18:29:22]me: im gonna ut u in my bag
[18:29:31]me: haha really? i don think ill fit.
[18:29:43]me: ill make u fit
[18:30:09]me: haha okay :) thatd we well fun, staying in your bag
[18:30:10]me: lol
[18:30:20]him: hahahaha
[18:30:29]me: id poke you randomly through the bag.
[18:30:43]him: ahahaha ill tie u up too
[18:30:45]him: lol
[18:31:03]me: :-O tie me up?!
[18:31:04]me: haha
[18:31:15]me: ill bite you. HA i win.
[18:31:57] him: ok ok ok
[18:32:03]him: i could duck tape your mouth but i wouldent lol
[18:32:12]me: haha if you did that i would cry.
[18:32:15]me: and i definatley wouldnt come
[18:32:54]him: lol
[18:32:58]him: but u will be coming right
[18:33:32]me: hehe yep. :)
[18:59:10]him: why are u dreading it
[18:59:20]me: full day and no lunch
[18:59:43]him: ull survive
[18:59:53]me: hope so.
[19:00:34]him: ill be there to help u along
[19:00:58]me: awhh yay. i hope i see you like inbbetween lesson cos ill be happy then :)
[19:02:23]him: u wil
[19:02:26]him: ill be waiting
[19:02:27]him: lol
[19:02:38]me: hehe that sounded WELL corny lol
[19:02:45]him: i knw hahaha
[19:02:49]me: awh hehe
[19:03:16]me: tomorrow doesnt seem all that bad anymore
[19:03:51]him: hhehehehe
[19:14:11]him: ow many lessons do u have then
[19:14:24]him: ???
[19:14:29]me: none!
[19:14:30]me: lol
[19:14:46]me: i dont know if im coming in or not
[19:14:47]him: u gomnnnna come in
[19:14:54]him: u should
i'm so fucking hapy right now. its so fucking nice for once to like a boy who might actually like me back who isnt a complete bastard.
^_^
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| Tattoo |
[17 Sep 2006|03:19am] |
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So it's finally happening, i've convinced my parents to let me have it done and in 11 days i will have suicide makeover inked onto my wrists. this is so important to me like you wouldn't believe. if you know me at all you know how much green day mean to me and how much they helped me through the hard times, espcially last year when i started self harming. if it wasn't for them and their music i wouldn't be here, simple as. prosthetic head is my favourite song and i thought suicide makeover was a fitting lyric to use. i'm having it on my wrists to link in with the self harm too. i was suprised that i actually got an appointment. she didnt ask how old i was or if i had any ID. i just walked in got it priced, went to see my mum, walked back in and booked an appointment. hopefully she wont ask for it when i get there cos otherwise i'm fucked. but i think she would have asked for it then if she was going to. so yeah i'm still looking out for that perfect font. i think i might have found it ut i'm still looking. i need it to be perfect you know? this is going to be on me for the rest of my life and its so important that everything needs to be just perfect.. for once.
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| Audrey Hepburn |
[31 Aug 2006|06:06pm] |
Well, that is who I am going as to this fancy dress party. Me and my mum went shopping today and I got a dress, long black gloves, jewellery, cigarette holder and false eyelashes. Oh and a hideous long black wig so I can fold it up and stuff. I must admit it all looks really good together. I also got this red top with a black imprint of a face on there. It kinda clashes with my pink hair but thats gonna be one soon.
Had my enrollment day at college. I bloody forgot to get my bus pass though so I am goign to have to go back in like tuesday or something to do it. Saw ellie :). Um.. nothing else much happening, got a banging headache but apart from that things are good.
:)
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| GCSE's |
[30 Aug 2006|03:20pm] |
Wow so I passed all of my exams
I got 3 A's; textiles and English Lang/Lit.
2 B's; ICT and RE
6 C's 2x science, child development, maths, art, drama.
I'm so happy! hehe. Things are good at the moment. Just found out when Chloe's party is and the fancy dress code is hollywood wtf. anyone got any ideas?! haha.
I met mcr and taking back sunday too! hahah and yes i have pictures with all of mcr and with adam lazzara annnnnd tbs' signatures :D
So yeah not much else goig on, life is boring at the moment. I have the dentist soon, psht. And my enrollment day for college.
Hmm. So yer.
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| its been a while |
[09 Aug 2006|03:55pm] |
today and last night have been total shit. i don't know how to describe how i feel right now, totally emotionless kind starts the descrition. apprently i meant nothing when i considered her a proper friend. wasn't friendship meant to be based on honesty? because everytime i a, i seem to lose that person i share it with. what the fuck is wrong with me. i dont understand. i've had enough of this whole internet forum thing. its stupid and pathetic and as many friends it gains me it overides that witht he horrible bbitchiness that comes with it. i really enjoyed my time at gdc but my time has come to leave i think. i dont know htings just arent right there anymore and i cant be there anylonger. i really love that place but its my time. i couldnt see why poeple left before but now i can only too well.
so i guess this is my goodbye.
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| Well, I'm Just A Little Bit Excited |
[21 Apr 2006|11:17pm] |
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I'M STAYING AT ALI'S HOUSE FOR A WHOLE FREAKING WEEKEND. OMG. im just a little bit excited.
next friday im going down and then me and her are goign to gian saturday and sunday together. it's going to be so freaking awesome. EEEEE. and im so glad i get to go with her and not jenna because i'll have more fun. and i get to meet her dad [WAHEY ALEH EY?] ahhahaha. omg im so excited its unbelievbllelelelel. eeee. and i get to see taking back sunday my chemcial romance lost propphets and panic all in one weekend. argh im gonna dieee. ahahhaa. i braided some of my hair today i look like a right hippie. aajaaahaha love it. shit night at work. was borign as usual and me and chloe kinda fell out :[ but we made up tonight on msn hhehe. jake is on his way back from london so he isn't going to be on tonight so i have no one to talk to =[
BUT YAY FOR ALI'S HOUSE!!!!!
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| I'm So Fucking Angry |
[13 Apr 2006|01:51am] |
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omg i haven't been this angry in fucking ages.seriously 'lets go offline whne i'm trying to fucking talk to you about something serious.' i want to fucking text him and fucking...argh no. because i'll say something i regret. i rreally need to let out my anger on something or someone before i do it to myself. he's such a fucker. oh god. arghhhhhhhhhh
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| Confusion Much. |
[12 Apr 2006|05:56pm] |
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Man these last couple of days have been totally confusing. Ive found out that Jake B told Jake H that he saw cuts on my wrist, when Jake H said i was pretty or something. So then Jake added me and started talking to me. And he told me this las night. And argh. And then i was like 'oh so you added me because you felt sorry for me?' and he was like no it was because i fancied you. ARGH. wtf. and liek these last few days we have been talking alot baout me and shit. about my self harm and suicide and why i am like i am. He's been trying to get to know me better and i haven't wanted him to. And then i cracked and told him everything when he knew all along because Jake B told him. Argh. But then he said he didn't still fancy me because he thought it woukd ruin what we have or something. I'm so angry at Jake B for telling him. Seriously he saw it, i didn't speak to him about it and he goes around telling people. I really want to say something but Jake said he didn't want me to because blah. It's doig my head in. I've told Jake H that i'm not mad at him but i fucking am. I wish i hadn't told him anything. I feel like everyone is finding out and it's driving me crazy. And then he says 'oh don't fall out wiht me i'm likely to get bitchy. and i was like well what does that mean. and he goes 'oh spreading stuff'. And he expects me to trust him?! ha. i keep everything in and i finally thought i had found someone to talk to. i was thinking last night, maybe i haven't. I mean we hated eachother a few months ago.
This sucks.
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| I Feel Rubbish |
[09 Apr 2006|11:27pm] |
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So i literally feel like who i am is rubbish. and now i've just been told it is. by someone i tought liked me for who i am. but who fucking knows who i am. =/ i certaintly don't.
[22:42:54] Flashpoint i: You hate me so bad right now
[22:42:58] Flashpoint i: Or whatever it is you call it
[22:43:04] x[Such A Sit: i dont hate you.
[22:43:25] Flashpoint i: Certainly looks that way
[22:43:32] Flashpoint i: It's what i assertain from your words
[22:43:44] x[Such A Sit: well.. i dont
[22:44:08] Flashpoint i: But you don't particularly like me
[22:44:10] Flashpoint i: At all
[22:44:12] Flashpoint i: Right now
[22:44:21] x[Such A Sit: true.
[22:44:40] Flashpoint i: Which might aswell be hate
[22:44:45] Flashpoint i: Because i'm really insecure
[22:45:00] x[Such A Sit: well not from this side of the screen it isnt
[22:45:24] Flashpoint i: I'm not on the other side of the screen
[22:45:29] Flashpoint i: I wish i was
[22:45:46] Flashpoint i: It'd be easier to talk
[22:45:54] x[Such A Sit: well whatever.
[22:48:22] x[Such A Sit: i dont hate you. whatever you think/
[22:48:33] Flashpoint i: But you may aswell
[22:48:49] x[Such A Sit: why?
[22:48:59] Flashpoint i: Because it's almost all or nothing with me
[22:49:04] Flashpoint i: And you don't like me
[22:49:14] Flashpoint i: Meaning you may aswell be a hater
[22:53:00] x[Such A Sit: okay then.
[22:55:48] Flashpoint i: Back in ten minutes
[22:55:49] Flashpoint i: xxx
[22:55:56] x[Such A Sit: okay
[23:07:48] x[Such A Sit: hi :]
[23:07:59] Flashpoint i: yullo
[23:10:22] x[Such A Sit: where did you go?
[23:10:33] Flashpoint i: Had to restart
[23:11:21] x[Such A Sit: oh okay. man are you pissed with me now?
[23:11:32] Flashpoint i: No
[23:11:35] Flashpoint i: Why would i be?
[23:12:04] x[Such A Sit: because you're being all short with me
[23:12:10] Flashpoint i:I'm not
[23:12:18] Flashpoint i: I'm being what you want me to be
[23:12:40] x[Such A Sit: what do i want you to be?
[23:13:02] Flashpoint i: Nothing to do with you
[23:13:16] x[Such A Sit: =[ okay.
[23:16:55] Flashpoint i: : )
[23:17:07] x[Such A Sit: :]
[23:18:31] x[Such A Sit: so you stopped being stubborn then? :]
[23:18:57] Flashpoint i: No
[23:19:05] Flashpoint i:Just gonna stop being so nice to you
[23:19:13] x[Such A Sit:oh thanks.
[23:19:25] Flashpoint i: : )
[23:19:35] Flashpoint i:Not that it'd bother you anyway
[23:19:50] x[Such A Sit: like i said. you seem to think you know me anyway.
[23:20:00] Flashpoint i: : )
i knew this would happen. but he just keeps trying to dig in deeper. i won't let him in but he insists on trying. and then this happens. and i end up pushing him away. fuck.
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| Prosthetic Head&Fashion Victim |
[09 Apr 2006|07:08pm] |
I see you, down in the front line.
Such a sight for sore eyes, you're a suicide makeover.
Plastic eyes, lookin' through a numbskull.
Self-effaced, what's his face.
You erased yourself so shut up.
You don't let up.
You have a growth that must be treated
Like a severed severe pain in the neck.
You can smell it but you can't see it.
No explanation identified 'cause you don't know.
You don't say.
And you got no reply.
Hey you, where did you come from?
Got a head full of lead, you're a inbred bastard son.
All dressed up, red blooded, Amannequin
Do or die, no reply, don't deny that you're synthetic.
You're pathetic.
________________________________
He's a victim of his own time
In his "vinage suit" and tie
he's a casuality dressed to the teeth
In the latest genocide
the new seasons come and go
at the dog and pony show
gonna sit and beg and fetch the names
and follow the dress codes
What's in a name...hey!
She's a scented magazine
looking sharp and living clean
living well and dressed to kill
but she looks like hell to me
So when you're dancing through you wardrobe
do the anorex - a go - go
cloaked with style
for pedophiles as the credit card explodes
you auctioned off your life
for the "most" expensive price
going once...
going twice...
now it's gone
you auctioned off your life
for the "most" expensive price
going once...
going twice...
now it's gone
what's in a name...hey!
what's in a name...hey!
what's in a name?
♥
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| Another Boring Sunday |
[09 Apr 2006|03:01pm] |
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Yeah so i got up late again. Which i hate. I got woke up by my dad singing to bloody B*Witched. O.o. Strangely making me want to listen to them now. Ahem. Yeah so I don't really know what to do today. Tom is coming down so I'm not going to be seeing Hannah for ages. :[. I want to go for a walk but my dog is ill and I don't want to go on my own. I'm really fucking excited about seeing kerry in like 2 days!! EEEEEE. I hope it's nice weather because apparently we are going on a picnic. I'm so excited. Haha. And her presents came through yesterday and i finished her card last night. 3 hour journey though. But i love car journeys. Seriously they are the best because i just put on my mp3 player and listen to music for the whole time. It's great. And my parents attempt to talk to me and I just pretend I can't hear them. Haha. Yeah and I'm feeling fat today because totally pigged out yesterday. I'm thinking of eating less. Like having breakfast, then just a sandwich at lunch and then a little bowl of pasta for dinner. See if that helps me lose weight. Mmmmh. Ooh i took my nose piercing out earlier because it's gone all gunky. I don't know whether to let it heal over or not because it hurt so much having it done that I don't want to take it out now. Bur it's so fucked up. Haha. I might take it out and just get the other side of my lip done. Then get the other side of my nose done. So it wont look stupid. Because if i get the other side of nose done now it'll look daft because my lip and nose piercings will be on the same side of my face. Mmmmh. Chloe has got a ickle present that she got me from london when she went sometimes last week. She's such a sweetie. ^_^. Mmmh well I'm off now. To waste a little bit more of my life on this computer.
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| Her |
[09 Apr 2006|03:43am] |
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I'm telling you, if she had been here i would have smacked her in the face. She is the nastiest and most annoying person ever. Who the fuck is she to tell me what i will and won't do. To be honest I want this green day tatoo because not only have green day changed my life more than anyone will ever know, but because the lyric i want means alot to me. I'm exactly what it says. It's a s if that lyric was written for me. I can't even explain it. And then that fucking bitch comes along and starts fucking laughing about it. I don't even know why i was friends with her. She thinks she's so fucking cool. Her along with that friend of hers. I'd like to punch them both, :]. Well I did it before but went back but I won't be returning to the beejay. I gave it a second chance but i can't be arsed with it. Especially while she is there. And she puts her opinions across as if she's the brain of britain when she hasn't got a clue what she's on about. Grrr. Well there's my little rant. I'm going to bed.
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| So Annoying |
[06 Apr 2006|10:48pm] |
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Okay i understand hannah is totally love struck with tom. and good luck to her but seriously she is the last person i would have thought would put a boy before her friends. I asked her just a minute ago that maybe we could go out for one day to the park in the holidays because i haven't seen her so far and she tells me that tom will be staying so she wont have time. Seriously, i am meant to be her best friend but nooo tom is WAY more important. Argh it just really pisses me off. My friends are so fucking useless. =[ And i suggested going out with jenna too but she literally said 'er no thanks.' Great friends i have ay? grr. And now she's telling me not to get funny with her. Seriously, get your fucking priorities right. i'm sick of my 'friends' fucking dumping me for something better/guys.
=[
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| I'm So Bloody Lazy |
[05 Apr 2006|03:59pm] |
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So I didn't end up going into school today because I woke up at like 3. Hahah. Well my mum woke me up at like 8 but I went straight back to sleep, haha. I'm so freaking lazy. Mmmh but I will definatley go in tomorrow because I actually do want to get this done. Yeah, so anyways last night was a bit wierd. Jake literally told me he wanted have sex with me, so that was er..strange. I wouldn't go there with him though, I don't know why i just..wouldn't. I hate being this age sometimes. Everything is about sex and I'm like wtf. stfuthnx, haha. Except in proper words. Ahem. yeah so I'm liking this live journal thing. I think it's going to be used quite alot, haha.
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